Sooooo I don’t know where to start. It’s hard to publicly state yeahhh I’ve got problems… Butt PROBLEMS. I’ve been suffering with some major G.I issues.. I can’t eat many things without extreme pain, vomiting or blood.. from EVERYWHERE It’s been an intense few months. We don’t know if it’s crohn’s or IBS or both they are thinking it’s anxiety that triggers these crazy episodes of extreme heartburn, diarrhea, vomiting (ALLL at the same time) I don’t know when these attacks happen it’s been like every week one occurs and my family is supportive, I have routine of like 10 tums crushed, apple cider vinegar, ginger.. after 2 hours of pain that feels like child birth through my butt and esophagus. I’ve been living like that😅 I started losing weight and had to get checked and they put me on special diet “Fodmap” diet..

It’s a pretty strict diet.. also with me being vegan it’s even more strict. I slipped and ate a single cheddar FLAVORED chip and it gave myself a weird flare up. It’s been miserable. Next week I’m schedule to have an endoscopy and colonoscopy to see where all this blood is coming from.. I’m not like crazy anemic.. just moderate and I only spew blood when during extreme panic attacks. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I just say there’s a dragon in my belly and I have to keep it happy. Well that’s easier said than done. Anyways.. I’m scared shitless… pun intended!

First off.. I don’t drink 16oz of fluid in a day unless it’s a mimosa.. They expect me to chug this! HOW GOD! SHOW ME HOW! Who is out here drinking this! Who did this with ease? Can I add something to it? What the whole hell! You me to tell me they have 900 versions of the iPhone but there’s not way to have a colonoscopy without drinking this abomination! I’m a good person! I pay my taxes! Why is this happening to me🤣🤣🤣 No for real… there has to be another way I can’t hold this much liquid! I have never held this much liquid.. I’m not feet five and I’m over 3 feet of leg.. so I have no torso.. maybe that’s the problem.. 🤔 (I would google it but I’m not about to stress myself with a google diagnosis today I don’t have the time!)

After I drink this big ol’ bottle of liquid then I have to poop and take another poop pill.. with the condition I have I swear I don’t need this😂😂 I don’t I go just fine without this crazy concoction. I’m not too scared of the procedure itself. I’m scared of the PREP! My booty has been through ENOUGH! I’m just so nervous

I’m ready to have this test be over! I can’t even drink real alcohol.. hence the mimosas. I can’t toast at my wedding! I want to be able to have a drink! I want to be able eat and enjoy foods again, I want to be able to not be afraid to get to stressed and like vomit blood in public or get stuck somewhere and the dragon FLARES! Does anyone have IBS or Crohn’s I’d love some feedback, stories… how is a colonoscopy.. will I survive! Ugh I’m so scared that I’m going to be sick after. I don’t do well with anesthesia. I’m little! (4’11ish and like 115lbs) I’m SMALL! so I immediately get sick when you wake me up. So am I going to be vomiting with a sore throat? That blows! This is why nurses makes the worst patients😑